Wednesday, February 21, 2007

Mid-terms, cars, cold, houses and wedding maddness

Thats right, its mid-term week(s)... and what am i doing? sitting here in the UAF library sense shortly after 9 this morning, been up sense 7 after a long night of feeling overly dehydrated... ive been sitting here, waiting for my first mid-term to start at 1pm. i reviewed for maybe 10 min and the rest of the time i have been spending ripping music to my computer. Ok i did write part of my Evolution paper.
It is a gripping tale of the great drosophila...for all you lamemens out there thats code word for fruit flies:)
so lets recap life as i know it right now. I have no car, after totalling the tacoma in december... Every possibility that has presented itself as turned out to be a bust and in the whole process i have lost $4500 in a huge mess involving a kid, a truck and a cashiers check oh and that small detail called a valid title... i guess i havent lost it, i just can touch it till after may which really limits what i can buy for now... then the Beretta (my trusty back up car) died this past weekend... then this morning Dad's truck he caught a ride with mom and i caught a ride with leah.... im starting to think that i am cursed when it comes to vehicles..... but enough on that.
lets move on to the house that micheal and i might get... ok lets not, i dont feel like thinking about it cause i dont have a job right now and anything remotely related to money is making me sick...
oh the reason i dont have a job? i got laid off just after the new years, but my old boss and the HR department havent gotten their acts together and closed the position so i have been having to go up there and sign time sheets every two weeks for the last two months even though im not getting paid... and with out a car it is really hard to go get applications, go to interviews or even make it to a job off campus... so really everything hindges on getting a car... get a car, get a job, get a house/appartment, get married(ok i guess this will happend regardless of a car but it might be acquard if i am still living at home).....
Ive put all wedding planning on hold for now, i have way to many things to think about on my plate right now and this was the only thing that i could put to the side for a while and releive a little stress.
so that is about it... right now i am just focusing on making it through mid-terms, oh and ripping my songs onto my laptop:) i keep telling myself that it is not that bad, that things will straighten out...

Thursday, February 08, 2007


You were nothing but a puppy
when she smiled
and called you Bunny
even though your name is
Scrub Dog of the North
from the picture book
in the case by the big stairs
you couldn't climb then
or yesterday, gray-faced and still
as you slipped away
from the girl who called
you bunny

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

Im so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

as V requested, not that i could keep it in anyway! Micheal proposed!!!!! christmas eve at ten to 7 LOL we were sitting in the turtle club parking lot about to head in for our dinner reservations when i opened the box he had given me and what did i see? the most amazing ring and a proposal i couldnt refuse...i have been on cloud 9 for the last day and a half.
i woke V up at 1 or 2 in the morning to tell her, then i called ashley and argued with her about wether i was joking or not.
i cant even put into words how happy i am or rather how happy he makes was a long time in the works but i know we are ready for this.
Micheal seemed to be getting a little nervous yesterday but on the long drive out to jere and courts it subsided and he seemed alot happier too...i know have so many people around and wanting to talk to you is nerve-racking and on top of it all micheal is a really shy guy and now he is in the spot light, but once we were alone and could just enjoy the moment ourselves again we couldnt stop smiling and was the smuchiest car ride ever...
in the way of plans...i think we have gotten as far as sometime in late july early august of 2008. hope everyone had a lovely christmas....i know i did

Sunday, September 17, 2006

It's been a long long while sense i've seen your smile...But you know i'd still walk a thousands miles just to be with you...

Sometimes i wonder why it is that we are here... why we know the people that we know, why we love the ones we do, why do i have the friends i have, or the enimies.
Why is life so complicated sometimes even when your board out of your can you miss someone your mad at, worry about someone who maybe doesnt deserve to be worried about. How can you give advice when your really only two steps ahead of everyone else and deep down your wondering if you really are....cause maybe your really 8 years behind them and no body has noticed yet, not even you.

Friday, June 16, 2006

HA i didnt wait a whole month

SO life has been super crazy...ok not life just work. I worked 12.5 hours the other day and i would have worked alot longer yesterday but i was just worn out...i was supposed to go to a movie with Micheal but then Mike Nicholson called and needed him to help him move out cause the girl he has been house sitting for is coming back today so he had to get out of her house last night...apparently he is going to live in a tent for the rest of this summer....i think he is crazy
let see what else...oh i leave for the field tues morning then i come back for a little bit on the 30th and then leave again on the 1st (so i have a few hours in town to clean my clothes) and then come back on the 15th....I super bummed about missing micheals i cant even explain how upset i get about it if i think about it too long...
he siad he isnt mad at me about it though so i guess i shouldnt worry...but anyone who knows me knows that i cant just not worry.
I feel like a dork right now too i dont have anything to do cause we are waiting to see if we are gonna be able to go flying today because of the rain so i should be making a super long entry but i cant....i just dont have alot to say about my life today....i think its cuase there is too much going on and to try to think about it all and put it all on here would make a novel not just an entry and i would probably just write myself in circles...
OH but one thing i will metion in that V is moving to really snuck up on me and now i might not get to see her before she leaves cuase of work and the whole fact that if i dont go flying today then i might have to go this weekend sometime along with haveing to pack and get all my gear together for waht is essentially a month long camping trip....I'm gonna miss her soooooooooo much.....

Sunday, June 04, 2006

WOW its been a whole month!

its been a whole month sense the last time i alot has happend yet i still dont know what to write about...i started a new job with the national parks first i didnt like it cause all i did was boring work but now its better, i even made a new friend (yeah For me) her name is Natalie but we all call her Georgia cause thats where she is from....she reminds me alot of myself lol right now she is in the field working...
let see what else Oh I PASSED CHEMISTRY!!!! that was exciting....and Ash adn Jon finally moved in together their new place is nice...
know what im not really in the mood to write..too much going through my head, maybe more later after i organize my thoughts

Thursday, May 04, 2006

it's been a while....

ok so its been a few weeks sense i last posted. But in my defense it is the end of the semester and i have been sick the last few days...actually almost all week now and i still coughing up my lungs every fifteen mins. But i am killing time right now before i have to go do my sociology final at 2 so i figure its as good a time as any to get anyone who read this this caught up on every thing thats been happening in my very "normal" boring life...
so lets see First off: I got the National Parks Service Job that i applied for even though the interview didnt go as well as i thought it should have. So now i am trying to get all the paperwork i need to do for that done and out of the way and tommorrow i have to go in and get fingerprinted so that they can do a background check on me...
then yesterday i got my first ever ticket....for speeding none the so now no one can tell me that i am too causious of a driver or that i ALWAYS drive the posted limit because according to officer stuart ( i think that was his name but he has really bad hand writing) i am a wreckless driver and deserve to pay an 82$ ticket and get two points on my licence...guess it was bound to happen sooner or later...and the whole experience wasnt that bad other than he tried to make it seem like he was doing me a favor by giving me the two point ticket...he said i was doing almost 60 in a 40 but i know i wasnt cause i was in third gear and my truck tops out at 50 in 3rd so HA.....although he did thank me for wearing my seatbelt:) Glad he noticed cause i seem to have shunk again and now the stupid thing sits right on my neck and feels like its choking me while i am driving....
Lets see what else...oh i am offically a jobless hobo again untill i start my new job with the parks service lol....i finished all my work this morning so i get to have friday off wich will be nice...means i can sleep in before my chem test...or get up early and study more...decision desicions ( i have no idea how to spell) also i was invited to a BBQ at the professors house on friday, i think its kinda a send off to the grad students who are heading out into the field or graduating soon...i think i might actually go...although i wish that i had somone to bring so i wouldnt be alone...i;m almost positive micheal told me he was doing something friday night...but i cant remember what, mainly cause i dont remember much from the begining of this week....
Ok i know there is something else....what is it....think think...Oh yeah Micheal and i still havent gotten to celebrate our 7 year anniversary...i wish i would have known how crazy this time of year would be for us before i had said i would go out with him....Maybe i should just drop it....but it seems like such a big deal and like we should really do something...problem is neither of us know what we want to do....we talked about it last night and all we have really figured out is that we dont really feel like a fancy diner cause we do that every if anyone has any ideas tell me please...we're wanting to do something the friday/weekend after finals week before i start my new job....although we might end up driving to anchorage if micheal can get off of work....who knows...all i can think about right now are the TWO chem test i still have to take...once they are over i will be on cloud nine in NO CHEM BLISS.....which mean you might be able to find me taking a nap in the bed of my truck in the parking lot of Nat Sci cause that is my plan....:)come visit me....if you RSVP i will be sure to bring a cooler with snacks and soda or something....or at least me.....:)