alright...
so i told myself that maybe i shouldnt write about micheal and i fighting in my blog because it tends to give the wrong impression about our relationship when all i do is talk about how made i am at him...but thats the thing, i;m not. And i try to write about the fun times we have together and the times that i am on top of the world but you know what thats not what a relationship is about...your not always doing great, your not always falling in love....sooner or later you come down from the high and you fight and yell and dont talk for days...or if you do its only at night...for 5 minutes to say goodnight, ilove you and to inform the other person that Yes..you are still mad....thats where micheal and i are right now....the one phone call at night, i love you, i'm still pissed, hope you had a good day, mine sucked, goodnight.And the thing is that the only reason i am mad is cause i feel liek he doesnt want me around, but he has been sulking for the last two days and is mad that i am mad.....its like a visous cycle....but i'm always the one to break it. we're going to have to see eachother tomorrow because we are both going to the wrestling meet for our respective younger siblings....I feel like we are playing some sort of game....liek the one that we play to see who can go the longest without kissing or touching the other,and we do everything in our power to make the other person want to kiss us. but this time its not all cute and im not vieing for a kiss...well ok maybe i am, but hes a stuborn ass.....LMAO he is.....why am i mad at him but still laughing? I am so furious right now, i just got off the phone with him, and he is still doing the bur in his ass thing and yet i;m laughing....
Its like he knows i;m mad, and i know hes mad but niether of us wants to give in.... I invited him to my brothers house over break....he said maybe...wich in micheal talk mean no most of the time...maybe i;ll come over, maybe i;ll call you, maybe i will see you, MAYBE THIS!!!!!! Maybe i;ll get over it! HA how do you liek that micheal? throw your stupid MAYBE back in your face...
Ok that was a little Psyco huh? i just am not really sure how i feel, and i dotn know if ill fell different tomorrow when my finals are done and i suddenly dont have anything to occupy my time...maybe i will go to the gym....but he might be there...thats what he did today, part of me wonders if he didnt go to see if i was there...cuase then he went straight home for dinner...and he when shortly after 6 ----when i am normally there...but i didnt go today becasue i was going to go home after practice and study...didnt do alot of that though....i think i know too much already, they should jsut give me my degree adn be done with it....
I wonder if thats why he went to the gym....it would be great if it was....i'm so going to make sure that i look absolutley want to rip her clothes off hot tomorrow for the wrestling tournement....:) i wonder what he'll think of that.... "you wanna play, lets play baby...." LETS GET READY TO RUMMBLE!!!!!!!!! i;m so winning getting him to kiss me first....
posted by Rachel_Bachert @ 12:46 AM
1 Comments:
You will win i'm sure of it. I think he's just so used to you giving in that he is just waiting for that. If you don't give in this time, then maybe he'll realize that he needs to do something. I don't know though. Anyways, I gotta go. Love you. TTYL
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